I chose the title because I feel kind of weird watching myself teach. My image of self has always been internalized, so it is weird seeing me from the outside. The first thing I noticed about my teaching habits (if they can be called habits this early in my career) was that I have a couple of security blankets. The first being my clipboard, I always have it in my hand it doesn't matter whether I actually need it or not. If for some rare reason I set it down, I end up looking around like a child who just lost their parent in a crowded park. “Um, ok, um, aaaaaaa, does anyone know where Mr. Deitz left his clipboard?”
“Oh here it is” sigh of relief.
The second security blanket is the white board marker, I love the white board, especially drawing on it and always need to have a marker. What was kind of funny about this was that I didn't seem to have any particular attachment to one specific color. So when I lost the first one or the cap I would just pick up another, so eventually I noticed that there were markers everywhere. This is a slight exaggeration, but I do feel as though a tornado has blown through the classroom after every lesson. I usually have paper, pens and notes in the way of whoever is teaching next. Usually I end up wondering how it all ended up so strewn about.
I am not sure if my clipboard waving is distracting to student or entertaining so I will have to try to not wave and see how they respond. I'm not going to do anything about the markers. I have tried to quit drinking coffee, but realized you must just embrace some attachments, just as the coffee doesn't really hurt, neither do the markers.
Now for some positive self talk, what I did good. (EVERYTHING) ok not really, In my dreams right?
There were a couple things that seemed to work very well during my lesson. The students seemed a little sleepy for the first ten minutes or so of class and it was a struggle to get them to participate. But when I got them up to do an activity they became much livelier, and when we got to the post activity discussion, they were much more willing to contribute to the group note taking. I really like to have them come up to the board and they seem to enjoy it as well. So those were some good points.
I'm still learning and it will be interesting to see how I teach next summer, or even by the end of this summer!